date written: 27 april 2016
describe an emotion without using the word: guilt
A sinking feeling in your chest where you feel like you’re drowning, even if your mind is hauling you back up by the thinnest of strings, trying to insist everything is fine, that there’s nothing wrong. Even if it’s an illusion, you can’t rid yourself of the feeling of the water in your mouth, filling your lungs. It’s a hollow feeling, like ice-cream scooped from its tub, but the tub is your ribcage, and the ice-cream is your heart, and perhaps your sanity too. Where you stumble through the day while your mind chants “If not for me, if not for me…”
dream 